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[25 Jan 2005|09:47pm] |
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Thrice |
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I never thought I'd let myself go for one person.
I never thought I would ever be dependent on love.
I never thought I would choose someone else over my life.
I never knew something could mean so much to me.
I never thought I could get over something, such as love.
But I never believed how strong I truly am... and this is where I take my stand.
I don't want to waste my life on waiting for him to come back, because I never know if he will. Alas, if the time comes, and we both feel we can give it another chance, I'll be there with open arms. But this is life you guys and I'm tired of caring about what everyone else thinks about me. Might as well live the moment to its peak while I'm still alive.
l always love him with every inch of my heart, but I'm tired of not feeling the same.
"Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow; we must fail in order to know."
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| -Quoted from Jessi. |
[15 Jan 2005|12:29am] |
How is it [you] have such a grip on all of the things about me I don't even have a grip on?
[You] have this unreleasing control over my heart.
When [you]'re not happy, I'm not.
When [you] don't feel good, I don't.
When [you] speak, I cling to your words like the next one is going to be the answer to any question I could ask.
When [you] breathe, I watch like the next breath is going to carry all of my pain away.
It's amazing how much [you] mean to me.
I can't even focus anymore.
[You] are my constant thought.
[You] are my constant want.
[You] are my constant need.
When I'm with [you], I always want to be closer, no matter how close we are.
I am still in love with [you]. It's more than love.
I can't breathe without [you]r smile.
I love [you]. And I'm sorry for this... for all of this.
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| -Meh. |
[12 Jan 2005|07:44am] |
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Fade away memories - Deep enough to die |
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Today just feel like it's not going to be a good day... at all.
My cat attacked me this morning and I burnt my arm trying to make toast. Eh. :\ Just a few ways to start off my day..
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[09 Jan 2005|12:18am] |
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A boy brushed red living in black and white - Underoath |
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I got my car back today!! :)
Matt wants to go back out with me... even after what I did to him. And because I accept what I did, and I know that I wouldn't change that night I had being with Adam, I'm going to stay out of a relationship for now... unless it is with Adam ♥. I love him with every beat of my heart... and that's all I feel for now.
I seem like a bitch, but I'm not about to break another heart nor am I going to betray mine again.
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| -Buried in the tune that I call love. |
[06 Jan 2005|06:59am] |
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Designed like dice - Trophy Scars |
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I start school this morning. I honestly don't understand why they make us start school at the end of a week... why not skip the two days that we start, let us have MORE of a break, and let us start the next week? It would make a lot of sense (*whispers* plus more days for us to sleep in late!).
I'm in a good mood day. Hopefully everything will go just dandy and I won't have to get bitchy towards anyone. This is my LAST semester in highschool. I can't believe it. Don't get me wrong, I'm READY to get out of there, but there were times that were just great at TCHS. I'm older, growing up, and moving on. :) This is what we call life and I'm ready to start experiencing it.
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| -I love to love you. |
[05 Jan 2005|10:38pm] |
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A Movie Script Ending - Death Cab for Cutie |
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I was able to see Adam for a few minutes today... I hugged and kissed him.
Something that simple made my heart feel so complete. I honestly love him.
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[05 Jan 2005|10:20pm] |
Alright... I have a question (favor)
Do any of you guys have anymore Funeral for a Friend songs, "Boulevard of Broken Dreams" by Green Day, and the song "Ohio is for lovers" by Hawthorne Heights?
If so, could you possibly upload it to me? Please!
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[04 Jan 2005|11:03pm] |
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Red is the new black - Funeral for a Friend |
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I'm in need for Funeral for a Friend's CD. Could I find it at Sam Goody?
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| -"...all the time." |
[03 Jan 2005|10:16pm] |
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It's amazing to find a certain someone's picture that can either make you cry or make you smile from ear to ear.
Kinda confusing at times, but worthwhile.
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[03 Jan 2005|11:47am] |
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Good morning, world.
I've drank so much coffee this morning, I don't know what to do with myself. I never knew that coffee would make me THIS wide awake and shakey... it's insane. I hope today is a good day. I started bright and early.
Useless entry, just trying to keep myself occupieid. I'm gonna go give the dogs a bath. Ciao.
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| -And the reason is y o u. |
[02 Jan 2005|06:02pm] |
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"when we die I want one big tombstone with both of our names on it. and I want to die a day before you, so I'll never be without you. I want to see the world with you, try everything I never thought I would. I would let go of my fears for a day, for you. and it would be worth it when you smiled at me afterward, rewarding me with flattery, without even using words."
Quoted from the wonderful Manda. I can't wait for a love that like...
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[01 Jan 2005|02:33pm] |
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Escape artists never die - Funeral for a friend |
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I fucking hate it here. I need an escape.
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